2004-2009

LOOSE ENDS

34 FIRE in my MIND Been thinking about you now, in the morning I wake with a lingering smile, skip through the day like its Christmas Eve and I’m 5. Oh at night I stoke the fire in my mind, Oh at night I stoke the fire in my mind, Oh at night I stoke the fire in my mind. Been thinking about you now, but I wanna B careful not to be trite. My sister likes to remind me that I get carried away sometimes. But this time I might B right, Oh but this time I might B right, Oh at night I stoke the fire in my mind. Been thinking about you now, now now, Keeping my body primed coz you might stay the night. Keeping my eyes well tuned for those good signs yeah yeah. Keeping the fire stoked in my mind, oh keeping the fire stoked in my mind, oh at night I stoke the fire in my mind…

35 PAYROLL PATSY You’re so obvious so obvious. What you do gets to us it gets to us. We point at you and laugh we laugh. Who put this creature on our staff. You’re so obvious you’re green with jealousy. You’re so obvious you stare just like a baby. You’re so obvious you talk too much about your boring family we all agree on your inferiority. You’re so obvious you stir so easily. We feed U pretty lies and spit in your coffee. Hey miss pitiful miss tragic wannabe you gotta know you don’t belong & yet you carry on in some deluded dream. You’re so obvious so hello please kick me, so step on the banana peel so different, so different to me. Do yourself a favour, crawl back down that hole you’ve dug so deep. We all agree its been decreed cc’d our ego’s been appeased…

35 1 MAN WOMAN I’m not a one-man woman but I am for you. Got no say in what I’m compelled to do. You make a one-man woman out of me. And I need you to be my one-woman man. I’ve been around, cruised through the night and ran aground. I’ve lived a cabaret. from showtime 2 the low times, through the boos and accolades. Made some noise about settling down to keep them happy on higher ground. Chewed on heartache like a cow on its cud, wallowed in lonely like a pig in mud…Hand in hand we navigate the wonderland of our shared fate. There’s a new kind of freedom in this safe place and joy to be found at walking pace. From time to time my mind wanders back to the cabaret, the plentiful lack. A glimpse, a glimmer may harken me to the thrill of the hour, the faraway tree. But since we met I’ve come to believe there was always a one-man woman in me and what was needed to set her free was the one-woman man who dared believe in me! Oh woh, oh woh woh…I’m not a one-man woman. That’s the tune with a use-by date of when I fell in love with you…

38 WELL of LOVE I made my father cry the day I told him I was carrying a child. I never knew before how scared he was that I would never realise that dream for my life. I said now daddy hush a while. It’s early days and who knows where the future lies. But as the rain outside relieved the long long dry I felt my father’s tears soothe a burning deep inside. And I knew that if this child survived, oh in that way oh it would never be deprived. That I might fail like my father did sometimes but deep into my eyes there’d be a well of love to draw from till I died. And I felt so glad to be alive, so full of wonder at the miracle of life. Sometimes there’s moments when it’s all just meant to be – My father and the rain and the life inside of me! I left my father in the rain. My home was down the road and his was on a plane. A man a mortgage and a dog waited for me, Dad had his business and a family overseas. And I prayed for it to rain for days. I prayed for the unborn and for me to be ok. And even though he never was one to believe, I felt somewhere up in the sky my father prayed with me…