1993-1995

KIND OF GREEN

02 KIND of GREEN From what I’ve heard I know you’ve been in love before, you’ve seen the joy and pain that union brings. You’re older by some years, the innocence is gone. Your streetwise essence I find so appealing. Perhaps experience has made you cautious, unwilling to take risks where love’s concerned. Our gap in age is true, is why I hesitate. My love has hidden itself well. Now time has passed and I can safely call you friend and now I feel we’re ready to progress to more. You must know now what I want us to be. I know I’m kind of green, I’m asking for your help. Will you please teach me how to love…I’ve never felt this way for any other and I must live out what I have come to know inside. Tell me how to bring out the love I know is in you, I know I’m kind of green and life ‘s not learned from movie screens, Will you please teach me how to love…

03 AMAZONIAN LADY Well just the other day I was jogging along my merry way, trying to get fit, minding my business a regular day to me. When a boy confronted me holding his hands out close to my chest He said “you seem to need a little support there and missy I’d sure be keen”. My first reaction was so what,it’s been done before. But then I remembered my feminist rage and a voice within me roared. Within me within me within me roared roared, Within me within me within me roared Oh I want to be an Amazonian Lady. I want to run like the wind each muscle pumping strong and step on all the rats that do me wrong and by the way if I could be an Amazonian Lady, I would toss the scales, outrage the fashion stales by adoring every inch of me While all this was on my mind that cheeky boy pinched my behind he said “why did you stop for you must enjoy it I’ll give you some more”. And there and then I knew his teasing days were truly through. One powerful kick to the overheated wick It’ll be a long while before he’s doing the do. Doing the doing the doing the do do doing the doing the doing the do…So girls it can be true. Amazonian can work for you if you’re intimidated by unwanted attentions nip it in the bud. As for the other aforementioned, don’t be ashamed of your womanly bod. Flaunt it or not be proud of what you’ve got. It’s unique it’s you it’s Amazonian. Ama Ama zo zonian an Ama Ama zo zonian…

07 ODE 2 CHARLOTTE Long ago and far away in a harsh but sacred land there lived a nuclear family six children wife & man. But mother & two daughters were doomed to an early grave. While father grieved the three remaining girls escaped in books & plays. The trio’s reading led their dreaming through a merry dance of affluent society and colourful romance. Though lack of food caused growing girls some physical defects philosophers & poets fed their hungry hungry hungry intellects. The eldest Charlotte Bronte, small and weaker than the rest, was sent off to be educated for the post of Governess. Though such employment left her feeling empty and depressed she kept her dream alive one day she’d be an authoress. Sweet Miss Charlotte so sad & unsure Yet through the words of Currer Bell her tiny voice did roar. Pale timid Charlotte constant suffering made her strong. Her mighty courage held her high though fate had done her wrong. While studying in Belgium Charlotte fell for her Monsieur, but only through the written word could she seek a love cure. Her unrequited love was consummated on a page. Passion spilled as ink on paper, writing quelled love’s rage. And though her teeth were falling from the gums that pained her so and though her eyes could only gaze at dark and bleak shadow and though a parasitic sadness ate away her heart and though her sex was downcast Charlotte wrote her stormy art. Hard work transformed talent into genius by three. With eloquence surpassing those more glorified than she, each Bronte strove to write her poignant message fervently. They longed for justice in the world compassion was the key. Heathcliffe Cathy Miss Jane Eyre Anne’s Tenant at Wildfell were destined for much greater fame than their makers could foretell. When Charlotte recognized the girls wrote works worthy of pay her efforts to seek publishment earned them immortality to this day. A double tragedy took Anne and Emily away, both strong in mind right to the end though bodies in decay. Poor Charlotte left to bear the stress of Bronte fame alone rejected high society for her isolated home. Certified a spinster in the end Charlotte was wed and during months of married bliss our heroine was fed the male love she’d written down throughout her lonely life, but sickness saw she only spent her last few moments on earth as a wife . Sweet Miss Charlotte why did you go? Her husband cried I love you so! With family by your side you’ll be happy there – and at least we’ll have Jane Eyre.

08 STANDING THERE Yes I’d admit most of my life has been lived for a dream. I’ve only hung around to see what the future will bring. They say you should savour what you have, don’t waste time waiting for what may never be. That’s all very well if you have what you need but I had to wait for that elusive something. Deep down inside I had to believe there’d be a turning point away from the pain. I didn’t know how or when or maybe even who would lift me up again to where I was when I was very young. I knew I’d have that joy again one day my life would be more fun. So many years I tried my damndest to go it alone. I’d constantly pick myself out of the mire and try to be strong on my own. But you see this deep dark void in my heart stopped me succeeding to much outside. It said it’s only you, you don’t deserve to win, no one cares run away and hide. And for the millionth time down I’d go, crawling into my own black hole. I felt sort of safe there but so alone, where the hell was my salvation I was so sick of this excuse I called my home. You were standing there right infront of me, but because I’d been so used to seeing nothing at all at first I couldn’t see you standing there persistently so patiently loving me. Thank God I finally opened my eyes and found my true happiness in your love. From the time you laid your eyes on me I metamorphized. Began to wear a smile began to believe again that perhaps I was worthwhile, Those painful feelings still lingered every other day, but you were here and I could deal with them in a more level headed way. Now I can laugh, it took so long for me to wake & see that joy and beauty I acquired is your sweet sweet gift to me. Your sunny smile is always with me even when I am alone. After years of nothing you inspired me to reach to heights I could never get to on my own.